My mind's a mess. Dunno y. Soooo many thoughts are up here in my head, all jumbled up. My relationship.... We're happy, yes... It's been 4 years and 6 months. Alhamdulillah.... But to take the next step, i.e. engagement and marriage, we have issues.... Haiz....
But yeah, I realized, the main issue is $$$$. Everything revolves around money. Dollars and cents. If we live in a world where money can be printed out easily, then perhaps my mind won't be in this state now. Soooo, what's the deal right now???
It was, was, my dream to get engaged maybe next yr. But I came back to reality, I'm not prepared. Hard to swallow, but true. So it'll be like another 3 years ++. Well.... I dunno. I seriously dunno. *all blank now in head*.
Some of u might think y must I be in this state if I cant get engaged next year etc? Well, the reason.... I dunno too. I guess its just that I dreamt of it often. So it kinda built a hope for me, if u know wat i mean. But ya, the dream will be postponed till dunno when.
Be back soon. Time to cool down. **&*(())
