Dearie, I am so sorry. I know lately you have been giving money to me etc. Now, its like I am just a financial burden on you. My computer had problems, I bought a laptop, I relied on you too. I wish I could ask from my family for help, but I thought you knew how my family is towards money matters. My family are always in a tight spot when it comes to money, but somehow, I myself dunno, my mum still can have the money to go on hols, and my dad still allows her to go despite her health condition, and also our family financial issues. Now Dearie, you have just transferred a large sum of money to my bank, to pay off the laptop debt, but I know deep inside you are unhappy. Seriously, if I can afford it, I would pay it off myself. Ask from my parents, you know the answer. My elder sister, same thing, it is very seldom that they help me in terms of money.But now, Dearie, you don't have to worry about helping me anymore. I am too embarrassed to ask you for help anymore. I know that you have had helped me enough. I owe you way too much money already now. I wonder if I will be able to repay off my debt to you.
Thanks very2 much Dear for all those times when you stood by me and helped me financially, spiritually, mentally, etc. Just know that I will always appreciate and cherish all that you have done for me. From tonight onwards, I would understand if you won't help me anymore. Insya Allah I'll be getting my salary at the end of this month, so for these few weeks, I would just have to find my own means to survive. Whatever it is, I appreciate all that you had done for me. I'll see you tomorrow, I need to buy some stuff for my class documentation, but no worries, I'll scrape out whatever money I have now to pay for them.
Whatever it is that you think of me now, just know that I accept it. Because I know it myself, I have been a financial burden on you since the beginning of the year. I will love you always Dear... Thanks again for everything. I thank Allah always that I have you by my side, even when you are not happy or satisfied you still stay by me. I wonder why, is it out of pity? Because I felt that if it was other guys, perhaps they would have left me from long2 ago... For the (i've lost count) time and definitely NOT for the last time, i'm sorry again, and thanks for helping me all these while. My dear frens and whoever happens to read this, don't think bad of my Dearie. Dearie has the right to feel what he is feeling now. I HAVE been such a terrible burden on him... Til my next entry.. Miss and love you Dearie....
