Today can be said to be the day that I truly and really took good care of my Dearie. Dearie came to my house after he visited his uncle at the hospital. Dearie was a having a bad flu and his temperature was quite high. So I quickly told Dearie to lie down on the sofa while I took a cloth, and a bowl of cold water, and then I sponged my Dearie. Of course, while I was sponging Dearie and because he was lying down, Dearie nearly fell asleep. But I just let Dearie rest while I continued to sponge him. I felt an emotion inside of me which I had never felt before in the 4 years (coming soon to 4 years anyway) that I had spent my days and gave love to Dearie.
Lately, there had been cases of sudden deaths of actors etc, that is a constant reminder to me that no matter how old or young, or how healthy you may seem to be, there is the probability that life may just slip away from you.
Thats why Dearie, I'll do whatever it takes to keep you happy, healthy, and as stress-free possible. I know that if the time comes, we will have to say goodbye, because God loves you more, but I wish to be able to be your fiancee, your wife, a mother to your children, I wish to love you for the rest of my life, and share my life with you. I know that you share the same dreams as me Dear... And if I am the 1 who leaves the world first, i hope that you will always remember and cherish the love that we shared all these years, even through the bad times, the hard times, and also through those times when we nearly separated, but syukur Alhamdulillah we worked things out in the end. I know, in the end, 1 of us will leave the other, and I just want to let you know that no matter what happens Dear, you will always be in my heart, and constantly in my prayers, my love for you will never stop, it will always be inside of me, deep in my heart, where nobody can take it away from me. I could never imagine how my life would be now if I had not met you, and how my life would be if it was without you now... From deep in my heart, I LOVE YOU DEAR, ALWAYS AND ALWAYS....
