Why the sudden topic about children? Well... first of all, I am now currently a childcare teacher who works really closely with very young children who's ages range from 18 months to about 4 years old children. (In my centre there are K1s and K2s children but I am not fully responsible for them). Not being biased and not practicing favouritism, but the toddlers up to the nursery children are those who are closest to me.
Secondly....
Look at this girl. She is the newest toddler at my centre. Just turned 18 months. In 1 day she is attached to me. Yesterday (Saturday) it was my working day, and her mummy sent her. When her mummy left, oh my... how she screamed and wailed... So being the caring person that I am, (ehem!), I immediately carried her and consoled her, and I think I did a really good job because not even 3 minutes later, she was quietly flipping through a book while I was doing some tasks. She sat beside me though. And everytime I got up to take whatever things I need, she will immediately get up and follow me where ever I went to. Even to the toilet! Hehehe....
In the picture, she looked moody because she just woke up from her nap. Believe me or not, she actually told me 'gambar' which meant picture or photo in Malay. At first I thought she was just simply talking to me, so I kept my hp in my pocket. But when I kept it inside, she attempted to take my hp out! Hehehe... So, actully, for fun, I thought I'd take her picture, and she actually wanted me to. Because I asked her, and she said yes. But I guess she just woke up thats why she looked moody.
And so, when I came back from work yesterday, I met Dearie. We were discussing about engagement and marriage life etc. First we were debating about how long our engagement will be. Dearie said maximum 1 year. I agreed. I said if things go well minimum will be 6 months. Dearie said Insya Allah. We decided that if we have enough savings for our wedding and must have surplus for the days after, then we are fully prepared. We don't wish to have a marriage that is always so tight in budget and having financial problems. I do not want that. I have enough financial problems now that I will remember my whole life. I wish for my married life to be peaceful and happy always. Problems will arise for sure, they always do. But I want to prevemt financial problems if possible.
This lead to a discussion about the number of children we'll have if we want to start our family. Both agreed that just 2 will be just right. Not too big a number. Not that I have anything against having a bigger family. Its just that, again, about financial matters. Because I already told Dearie that if I have children I might want to resign from my work for a few years to look after them. I might work in a childcare centre, but I think I would want to place my children in PCF centres instead. Oh wow Lissa, you think so far ahead!! Hehehe....
Nevertheless, whatever the number of children that Allah shall bestow upon me and Dearie, Insya Allah, we'll accept it with all our heart. Anak-anak kan anugerah dan amanah Tuhan pada kita. Hmmm, talking about my future with Dearie got me bursting with excitement till I have goosebumps. Hehehe!! Ooops. gotta go now. Meeting Dearie for breakfast. Bath time! Hehehe...
